Tuesday, November 18, 2014

Cooking and Cuddles

Almost 6 years ago, I found out that I was going to be an Aunt for the first time.  Now that I'm an Aunt to two WONDERFUL kiddos, I've truly come to realize how much they have enriched my life and blessed me in so many ways!

Monday night was just one of those nights where I felt the love, hardcore, from my niece, Danica.  As she is 5 years old, she is a lover of the Disney movie, Frozen, and at times she prefers to be called Elsa.  Upon her arrival, one of the first things she told me was that SHE was the one who made it snow on Sunday night, using her magical Elsa powers.

Danica Elsa, this past summer.
She helped prepare a dinner of chicken, biscuits, and macaroni and cheese with my mother, and loved standing on the kitchen island to check on the cooking noodles.

She was in a rare form, way beyond her normal, hilarious self, and just as dinner was about ready, we decided to take a couple of pictures together.

"Let's do silly faces, Jan!"

"Say Potaaaatoooooo!"
 After dinner, and some well earned time spent with her Daddy playing with play-dough and reading some books, my favorite Little Lady decided that she was going to sleep in my bed, with me.  When I crawled in bed next to her, I asked her why she wanted to sleep with me and her soft spoken, sleepy response melted my heart.  "Cuddles!"

 Before this little Queen, who is sadly, coming down with a cold let me turn the light off for the night,  she wanted one last picture of us for the night.  Your wish is my command, Your Highness!

Bubble Guppies pajamas!
After watching some Full House (one of her new favorite shows!) she finally found a comfortable sleeping position and entered into a peaceful sleep....

Danica cuddled up against me.
Hello Kitty pillow getting zero use.
I guess she was completely serious about the cuddles!

Friday, November 14, 2014

Fifteen to go!

In fifteen days, my friend Natalie will be marrying Matt, the man of her dreams.  I feel so honored to be able to stand beside Natalie on Saturday, November 29th, when her and Matt finally say "I do!"

Natalie and I have been counting the days down together for nearly 200 days now, to the point where it has nearly become a game.  I'll receive a text message mid-day saying "How many days?" or we'd be mid-conversation and one of us would blurt out, "So, how many days?"

Natalie and Matt got engaged months before Matt 'put a ring on it!'  I was on my way to Destin, Florida when Matt began texting me to plan on the actual proposal, and I spoke with him several times throughout my vacation.  Shortly after returning home from my vacation, the proposal went down at a nice little Italian restaurant perfectly, as Natalie was caught completely off guard.  It wasn't anything huge, or elaborate, but it was 110% perfect for Natalie and Matt's style, on a beautiful Saturday night in late July in Texas!

The next thing I knew, we were shopping for wedding dresses and bridesmaid dresses, which was a completely amazing experience.  The dress Natalie is wearing is the 2nd (or is it 3rd?!?) dress she tried on at David's Bridal.  When she rang the bell, a tradition at Davids, myself, the matron of honor, and Natalie's mother, were all in tears.

We also picked out our bridesmaid dresses that day, however, they did not have a single dress in our color in stock that day, so we went into ordered our dresses color unseen, which made all of us a little bit nervous.   Oddly enough, Jessica, the matron of honor, and I, showed up at the exact same time to pick up our dresses when they arrived, and we fell in love with EVERYTHING about the dresses the moment we saw them.  I took mine to show Natalie right away, and she was just as smitten as we were!

With one wedding shower already under our belts, the next 15 days are sure to be exciting, yet hectic.  With endless hours of minor details left to put together, an entire corner of my room full of gifts needing to be wrapped, one more bridal shower, a bridal luncheon, and major holiday (Hello, Thanksgiving!!) until the big day, all our our dresses our altered and pressed and we're ready for the big day!

In just 15 short days!
Me with the bride-to-be!

Friday, November 7, 2014


I've been missing in the blogosphere lately because I've been depressed lately.  (I think,  I mean, I'm no doctor.)  It could be I've just been overwhelmed, and anxious, with feeling kind of sad with a pinch of numb, but it happens.  I guess it's kind of like when Justin Timberlake said 'What goes around, goes around, goes around, comes all the way back around....' or something like that.  Who knows, I'm no expert.

There are some days that seem to blow by like a cool summer breeze, and other days that feel as if they are a never-ending winter ice storm.  You learn to painfully cherish each and every moment, no matter how quickly it blows past, nor how dreadfully slowly it passes by.

My mind seems fizzled right now.  I seem completely lost.  I had a semi-conversation with someone the other day via text message, and the next day, we had a serious conversation face-to-face about some rumors that they had heard.  (All false!)  These rumors had us originally pretty upset at each other, and I could actually go as far as saying down right pissed off at each other, however, after sitting and discussing it in person, we are no longer angry with each other, we just don't know who exactly the culprit is for starting the rumors.  I have a pretty good feeling about who is doing this, so you never know.  

The wedding of Natty and Matty is quickly approaching and so is the excitement!  Today I picked up the "Something Blue" to give her during her Bridal Luncheon a few days before her wedding.  It's very reminiscent of how we met, and it brought me to tears when I saw it.  Actually, I've been quite emotional FOR Natalie during this process.  We were at the chapel a few weeks ago listening to the pianist play some of the pieces for her wedding, and when the pianist began playing the bridal march, I burst out in chill bumps and tears.  Better now than the day off, Girlfriend!
RED CUPS ARE BACK!!!!!!  Need I say more!?!
Red Cup LOVE!
Enjoy your weekend everybody!!!

Wednesday, October 29, 2014

Depression...it's real.

Depression can be a sneaky little bitch that just pops out of nowhere and rams her cute little face right into your face at the most inopportune moments in life.  I just want to be this "Happy-go-lucky" woman, however, the past few days, it feels as if I'm easily brought down, which is a detrimental feeling.
Some of the depression came on over the weekend upon being completely ignored and then blown up  on by a family member.  It is something that absolutely shouldn't surprise me, nor bother me, however, I can't believe how somebody at that age and stage in their life can act so immaturely in a public setting.  I'm thoroughly embarrassed for them and still laughing at their immaturity level that was displayed publicly.
After the public humiliation for my family member, and my hour of public hilariousness, I got to spend the greater part of the day with a little person that means the world plus some to me.  We had a great time cuddling on the couch, eating chips on my freshly laundered bedding, running around the house like maniacs, high-fiving, and giving and receiving an endless amount of hugs and kisses.  It was quite perfect!
On a side note, which has nothing to do with the family member, I was raised not to roll my eyes.  My mother hates eye rolling, so eye rolling is a huge no-no.  It's a huge form of disrespect.  The constant eye rolling every time I'm in the same room as a certain person is unbelievably disgusting.  For being someone whom is so highly respected professionally and personally, you sure do not know how to publicly present yourself in that manner to very many people.  Quite possibly, you think I'm some sort of threat towards you?  Whereas in reality, you won't even speak to me and homeboy is...well....crazy in love with YOU...and he and I are never ever gonna be gettin' together....like, ever! Get tha picture?  
Yesterday was the 28th, which marks exactly three months ago since my sweet (second) cousin, Madison Elizabeth, Went to Heaven.  The 28th has become a rather difficult day of the month for me to cope.  Had Madison not been born and passed away at 18.5 weeks, my cousin would be about two months away from delivering her now.  It still makes me sick to my stomach thinking about the loss of this precious life.  I'm still at a complete loss, especially on the 28th of each month, wanting to text or call my cousin and her husband, yet, I don't know what to say.  However, they are fiercely loved and widely prayed for, the same for Madison Elizabeth, who is safe up in Heaven, watching down on all of us.
Despite the depression, I've found solace in pure beauty that can't be duplicated.  That is a true work from God.  A beautiful sunset always makes me so thankful for all of the blessings I have in my life.  It makes me realize that it could be so much worse.  Despite all of the medical issues and pain, despite the Saturday morning drama, I took this photo below, and I can show it off to you, 110% unedited.  It's Gods' creation, His artwork, and it's stunning.
October, 24, 2014

Friday, October 17, 2014

Dear Friday

Dear Friday, instead of making today seem productive on this beautiful day, I feel the urge just to lay around and catch up on television shows.  I've already watched this weeks Law and Order: SVU, and I'm working on watching the first 3 episodes of A to Z.  Even with my daily liquid courage (aka, coffee!) I just don't want to leave my bed and laptop.

Dear Weather, please stop changing so frequently as of late.  It's not great for my health, or my motivation.

Dear Saturday, I cannot wait for you to arrive, with the exception of my alarm clock going off very early.  However, Saturday morning soccer games of my nephew, Adrian's, are my favorite thing in the world.

Dear Coffee, I love you, oh so much!  Let's stay together forever!

Dear Marissa, Happy Birthday!!! (tomorrow!)  P.S.  I love it when you talk medical to me, Marissa Anne!

Dear Matt and Natalie, Forty-three days until the big day!  I can't wait!

Dear Target, I'm rather upset you only had one of the scarves I picked up for Marissa for her birthday.  I desperately wanted that same scarf, so we could be twins!

Dear Presley, Thank you for not only getting me addicted to Portlandia, but now A to Z!  Also, every time I think about that shows title, I think of the Jason Mraz song, Wordplay.  You should learn it, and sing it often!  It's an awesome song!

Dear Blog Readers, you are all awesome and I hope you have a wonderful weekend!

Wednesday, October 15, 2014


Once again, it feels as though I haven't blogged in forever.  More so, it feels as if I haven't touched my laptop in an eternity.  It's not for the lack of living that's prevented me from blogging, it's the complete opposite actually.  

I've been attempting to live life to the fullest as of late.  I've come to a realization that life is short and I should try and enjoy even the smallest of moments.   

The smaller things in life have recently included eating pizza instead of sleeping, spending time with the parents instead of just laying around and relaxing, and most importantly, during a migraine, getting out of bed to play with my lifelines, Danica and Adrian.

It's the little moments in life that make the kids happy.  It's the little moments in life that make me happy.  All Adrian wanted last night was for me to get out of bed the other night and make him and Danica popcorn, and instead of rolling over and going back to sleep, I obliged, and he thanked me a numerous amount of times.  

Tomorrow, I have a an appointment with Dr. Brain.  I have no doubt in my mind that he'll give me a clean bill of health, however, my anxiety level is pretty high that he'll want to up medication dosages or send me for imaging, since I haven't had imaging done in about a year.  

I can't focus on the anxiety of the appointment though.  I need to stay in the moment and enjoy life.  On tap tonight is a night of great friends and great music...I couldn't be happier!

Monday, September 29, 2014

New Post

I'll tell you what, the creativity with blog titles is just coming from magical places lately, because, seriously?  Best! Title! Ever!  

Also, at some point you reach a plateau.  This oddly satisfying plateau where I'm the happiest I've felt  in so long.  It's such a strange feeling.  

I think it all began when my friend Presley and I really began hanging out a lot more frequently.  There is nothing going on between us relationship wise, however, for the past few weeks, we've been spending at least 4 days a week together, and when we aren't together, we are texting each other.  He has become such a positive influence in my life.

When we are together, we can usually be found sipping on Frappucinnos, thanks to Presley newly getting me hooked on them again, talking about just about any and every topic under the moon, and since he is a drummer, his drumming tendencies (read as: he drums on anything, and everything, at all times!) tend to rub off on me when we're together and we both start randomly drumming on any surface we can find.  Last night, we were in the car together on the way to dinner and we were both just randomly drumming for a good 5 minutes before I realized we didn't even have any music on.

We can be extremely dorky and go sunglasses shopping while both wearing our hats tilted to the side.

We celebrated his birthday, his twin brothers birthday, and one of his younger sisters' birthday all in one evening with his entire family.

Last Monday night, he had a gig at the last minute come out (Remember:  He's a musician, yo!) and he invited me to come down with him to the "Invite Only" Grand Opening of a brand new TGI Fridays in our area.  Presley and I had a great time coming up with a tentative setlist on the way down to gig and then I had my own couch and table at the side of the stage so I could watch the guys perform and hang out.  The best part was the Photo Booth that was set up, and during his break, we ran over and took a series of pictures.   Unfortunately, two of the four pictures will NEVER see the light of day, because they are completely horrid, and one is not uploaded to my computer yet.  I guess you'll have to deal with the one picture I have.  Our "fun" picture....

And then theres nights when Presley just disappears and someone else pops out of his shell....

All in all, I'm blessed to have Presley in my life.  He has helped me restore my Faith in so many ways.  I've noticed so many little changes in myself since we've become so close.  The changes may not be noticeable to those around me, but they are most definitely evident in my eyes.  As long as the positive changes are apparent in my eyes, they're the only eyes they matter in.

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