Wednesday, August 19, 2015

Blank Space


You know how to make me smile
You know what makes me tic
The way your lips feel against my skin
It's an epiphany, a memory trip.

You're always playing so cool
Obeying every rule
The way your hand fits perfectly in mine
Flirtation, play, fantasy, love
Baby, you're all mine

Yet, you don't know who I am
Treat me some way cruel
As that is what I am doing to you
Use me up, darlin'
Play me like you do

This game was made for us
We'll play each other for a fool
Heads I win, tails you lose
Game.  Set.  Match.

Blood will flow red
Holes shall crack
No sticks, nor stones
Only lofts and Crowns.

Monday, August 3, 2015

While in Buffalo....


As previously stated, I spent a good majority of July in Buffalo, NY mourning the loss of a loved one.  My sweet second cousin, Addison Rose, passed away before taking her first breath on this Earth, much like her sister, Madison, last summer.  However, there was a bright light at the end of the tunnel, as Addison's twin brother, Landon James, survived!  Although, being born at 24 weeks gestation, he's a teeny tiny little peanut, but doing quite well.  These were his stats at birth:

I had the pleasure of meeting him when he was about 26 hours old, and he is handsome as can be!  Out of respect of the family, I'm not going to post photographs of Landon at this time, but he's adorable!  He has a ton of hair, and he's a little fighter!  All positive thoughts for him would be appreciated in the coming months as he still has quite the battle to conquer!

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A great thing about being in Buffalo was being able to catch up with family.  One thing I was horrible at doing was taking photographs with my family, especially at the family reunion, which was held on the final weekend I was in town.  My parents, and my niece, Danica, flew in town for the reunion, so it was a breath of fresh air when they arrived.

Without much more blabber, lets get to the pictures....some of them, at least!!!


A beautiful sunset over Lake Erie!  (no filters or effects!)

On a Wednesday, my cousin and I
wore Pink!  It's the rule!

I found a Starbucks, and it made my day!

Ice cream also made me a very happy girl!

A night out with my Uncle Greg!

New outfit from head to toe!

First pic with Danica when she arrived!

My Aunt Mary and her Red Solo Cup lights!

Danica and I swing on the swing set

However, the family reunion wore her out!

She posed this one

And this one

And this one!
Show off the necklaces!

Day 1 she was afraid to touch the water

The last day she was brave as can be!

I cut my hair

So did she!

So beautiful and grown up!

The home I came home to from the hospital as a newborn baby!


Waiting for our plane in Buffalo!
Peace out, Buffalo!  We love you!


Roller Coaster Ride


These past few weeks have seemed nothing short of a roller coaster ride.  Perhaps when I posted this post, I had a gut feeling that the roller coaster ride was just beginning.  Who knew that exactly a week after I had posted that entry, he and I would both be on different ends of the country, myself in New York, him, here in Texas, both mourning losses.

I found out about a death in my family on the evening of Saturday, July 11th, and promptly flew up to Buffalo on the morning of the 12th.  While lending me an overwhelming amount of support through the distance, he dealt with his own tragedy, the death of one of his best friends, and a good friend of mine, the morning of Wednesday, July 15th.

Being 2,000 miles away from each other, we both supported each other as best we could from a distance.  We texted and spoke on the phone daily, and even chatted via Skype a few times which made a world of difference to actually see each others faces as I did not return back to Texas until the 29th.  It was by far the longest we had been apart from each other, and it was a challenge.  It was not a challenge on our friendship by any means, however, it was challenging being away from someone you are so used to seeing on the regular.

When finally reunited, we exchanged a very long, and tearful (on my behalf!) hug, and I told him how glad I was to see him.  I told him I had never been so glad in my life to see him, and he told me he would never leave me.  With us both still having loss fresh on our mind, and in our hearts, it stuck in my mind, and for the first time in weeks, I felt like I could finally breathe in a breath of fresh air.  I guess it's just proof that our friendship is top notch.  

Through ups, and downs, much like a roller coaster, I'm glad I have him by my side, or 2,000 miles away, to have my back in any circumstance where I need him.  As someone to make me laugh, or to be the shoulder to cry on.

I'm blessed I didn't consider ruining our friendship for any kind of relationship beyond that.  Friendship is where we belong.  I wouldn't have it any other way...

If only he'd me a little more amenable to photographs of himself now, or shall I say, smiling in photographs....life would be grand!  
PBJ for life!  3/14/15

Regardless, he's the peanut butter to my jelly!

Wednesday, July 8, 2015

To Be With You


Everyone has said it.  Our friends.  My parents.  My siblings.  My nieces.  

I've heard the same questions an uncountable amount of times.  Is that your boyfriend?  Is he your husband? 

He gets the same questions and comments.  Is she your wife?  Oh, is that your girlfriend?  You two are such an adorable couple!

Sure, there is one club we frequent that is quite shady, where we always tell people we are a couple, therefore, the both of us eliminate having to spend the evening getting hit on by creepy individuals.

Otherwise, we are just friends.

However, the last few weeks, things have just...felt different.  I've spent a great deal of time praying about it, as he has really inspired me to find my Faith.  It's no secret that he and I spent a plethora of time together, and spend the night at each others house quite often.

On Monday, he and I were having a lazy day, and ended up napping in my bed, together, for the first time.  When we sleep at the same location, we never sleep in the same bed.  It's just not how we roll, and it has NEVER happened, until Monday.

Later that night, we were driving to go get a midnight snack, I put my hand on the armrest in the car instinctively, and moved it over a bit due to a water bottle in the cup holder.  The next thing I knew, he and I were holding hands, nonchalantly.  Our conversation didn't skip a beat at all.

It felt so right.

When we got back to my house, we put a movie on and both climbed in my bed to eat and watch the movie.  After we ate, he just laid back and fell asleep, as did I.

A couple of hours later, as I tiredly opened my eyes, I noticed my head wasn't on my pillow, but it was on his chest and our hands were joined together, fingers intertwined.  

Slowly, I removed my hand from his, and rolled off of his stomach, back onto my side of the bed, as not to disturb him.

He awoke earlier than I, and I felt him climb out of the bed and cover me with the blankets as to ensure I was warm enough.  

All was completely normal between the two of us during the day.  

I don't know how much longer this game can persist.  A conversation may need to be initiated, however, a friendship does not need to be ruined in the process.

Thursday, June 11, 2015

You say Catch Up...I say Mustard!


Wow!  Time has surely flown by since I've logged into Blogger!  Actually, that's not the absolute truth, I've logged in, and written a couple of partial posts, and later realized who lame they were, so quickly deleted them.

Perfectionism, or lack there of, can be a mind killer!

I'm extremely excited that in a mere few hours, my brother is coming home!  He works out of town and does a month on, a month off.  However, this time, he had to had to return to work early, so it's been 38 days (Not like I count or anything!) since I've seen him.  

Goodness Gracious, it has been a LONG 38 days...it seemed more like 83 than 38, but he's only a mere teeny tiny few hours from being home!

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Even though my brother is coming home today, there will be no rest for the weary.  And my weary, I consider myself to be the weary one, even though it may be a close competition between the two of us!

Saturday we will be celebrating my brothers birthday, which was back in May, and the birthday or his girlfriends daughter, whose birthday was earlier this week.  Birthday parties are always fun, however, DOUBLE birthday parties are double the fun!  
And now she is nine!
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Let's also establish the fact that I've yet to begin to even think about purchasing gifts for these two amazing people in my life.  I'd also like to take out this one special little girl who loves her Daddy, so she can pick out something just for him!
Her and her Daddy were watching a movie
together.
I should get thinking about the perfect gifts!  Some people are just far too difficult to shop for and it really makes you put a thinking cap on, whilst attempting to be creative!

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I went to Tulsa last month for a long weekend.  I ate my favorite food in the world:
With one of my favorite people in the world:
Out of the 10 people photographed with me here, I drank beers with five of them!
I'm on the far right.
I also captured this awesome photograph around sunset with thousands of good friends of mine:

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The new season of Orange Is The New Black begins tonight at 2am my time....I pray I can stay awake late enough to at least catch a couple episodes.  I've only been waiting a YEAR for season three to begin!

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My little boyfriend is spending the night Saturday!  I can't wait!

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What do you have going on in your life?  What are you looking forward to?


Monday, May 11, 2015

Life as we know it...

This is just going to be a quick update, full of some mumble jumble and all that jazz.  
Life as we know it, especially for me, can go from cool and calm to absolute bat shit crazy insanity  in the drop of a hat!
As I'm preparing to head to Tulsa this weekend to see TONS of friends, with the added bonus of seeing my favorite band in the world, (Hanson!) life has gone from melancholy to mad in the blink of an eye.
One day, I'm watching Danica pour buckets of water on her head...
and being extremely serious with Adrian,
and the next day?  Life pulls a cheap trick to al involved, storms sweep through, and you wake up to something like this.



The high winds of north Texas knocked down my fence!  As much as I enjoy open concept living, having had the open concept backyard for nearly a week now is something I do not love!  It's kind of cramping my style of random dance parties in the backyard with the IPod in my ears!  I'm fairly confident that is something my neighbors wouldn't enjoy seeing, in the least.

Also, waking up at 7:00 a.m. to tornado sirens on Mother's Day is less than an ideal way to wake up.  I am FULLY aware that I am NOT a Mother, however, my Mother didn't like the siren alarm clock, either.  I should note here, that I may have won daughter of the year by going straight back to bed after the sirens ended.  Yes, I am THAT AWESOME of a child!

However, all the bad, insane, crazy, has passed by.  It is STILL raining here in Texas, and it feels like it may NEVER end.  However, I managed to have an awesome trip to Tulsa, which I should get a post up about...soon!

And if you know what "SOON" means in my land....ehh...I guess I should get rolling on that post right now!


Thursday, April 23, 2015

Four - Twelve- Eleven

*I know this post is nearly two weeks late.  Blame it on the surgery I am still recovering from, and every day life.  Nevertheless, it still had to be posted!*

Oh my sweet Adrian!  Today you are FOUR!  Where do I even begin with this post about you?

I look at photographs of you at your current age and photographs of you from mere hours and days old and see the exact same child, which is so odd.  I've never seen an adult toddler who looks exactly the same as they did the moment they were born.  It blows your Aunt Janet's mind!

Is a four year old still considered a toddler?  To protect my heart, please say yes!

Four years and 39 minutes old.
I could go on and on for days about how physically attractive you are.  You're such a handsome young man.  You are surely destined to break many hearts in the future.  The first heart you will probably break will be mine, since at times you won't answer when I call you by "Adrian!"  No sir, you turn around, look at me, and say "Call me 'Boyfriend!'"  This made my heart swell with even more love for you when it happened a few weeks ago when you visited me in the hospital.  It made all of my worries about the upcoming surgery disappear and I just laughed. 

The night before your birthday, Presley and I were out and about buying your birthday presents, talking all about you and all of your handsomeness.  We narrowed it down to the top (look wise) three characteristics about you, with an honorable mention, because Presley had never noticed the number one, until I pointed it out the next day to him.

Adrian and Presley, on your birthday!
The Honorable mention, is the gap in your two front teeth.  He and I just both think it's so cute and you!

3.  Goes straight to those dark eyes that I love more than this world!

2.  I love your dimples!
1. Is strange, but my favorite!  I love how your inner ear is heart shaped.
Honestly? I love looking at it when you're asleep.
You're the funniest guy around and you always keep me on my toes.  You are in love with trains, but what do you love more than trains?  GARBAGE TRUCKS!  You own so many garbage trucks, that when I asked what you wanted for your birthday, you stood up tall and proud and said "You can bring me a garbage truck!"  I obliged and brought you a brand new garbage truck to your birthday party, which made your eyes light up and my day was absolutely made!  You also have this habit of chasing me down for another hug and kiss when I'm leaving your house, which is totally cool with me, but last weekend, I left and you ran into the street to get to me, and nearly gave me a heart attack, which wasn't so very cool, yo!
Not only are you tall, you're smart.  As in, you are IQ tested like a year and a half above your age.  I mean, I'd already come to terms with the fact that I'll have to stand on a chair to discipline you within the next few years, but you can already outwit me and con me into getting just about whatever you want.  You want another cupcake?  I just said no, but flash that smile with those big eyes, and you can have seven more if you'd like!  In fact, let me go buy you some ice cream to go with those cupcakes!
(Messy!) Cupcakes on the actual birthday!
You and Danica still are the best of friends!  You had an awesome playdate here a few weeks ago where I got a few great pictures of the two of you!  This one is my new screensaver on my phone, and it just makes me smile every time I click on my phone on!
Although this picture just makes me laugh every single time I look at it....

I love you, Adrian.  You make me smile, you make me laugh, and at times, you make me cry while smiling and laughing.  You've brought my joy and happiness.  I can't wait to see what the upcoming days, weeks, months, and years bring.  Your future is incredibly bright, just like your smile.  

Your smile and giving soul fulfill my heart and I can't imagine my life without you!  Happy (belated) Fourth Birthday, Adrian!  



 
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